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Monday, 03 August 2009

Wednesday, 29 July 2009

  • gym

    ok so I went to the gym

    and got yelled at

    It was so hot and swetty in there with every one running but not going anywhere

    i just had to drink something-thats when they started looking

    thats when he started yelling

    "drinking that in here is like driking in a 40 in church... no its more like a hooker drinking a 40 in church"

    I was hot, ppl kept sweating and it smelled bad I looked at my little pepsi and I was 

    done.

    with working out

    I had decided

     

     

Tuesday, 02 June 2009

  • stuff that is meant to be felt...

    thinking about words

    Random thoughts on saying stuff that is meant to be felt...

    saying I Love yoU
    i Still Love U
    I will ALWays? Love U

    wondering if the words we say say something less about the relationships or feelings that they are meant to express than the unspoken emptiness or maybe loneliness that we are trying to avoid

    some times I think we barter
    I am guilty of this I am sure

    when suddenly you notice a whole there what do you do
    maybe one can fight that nothing but why not two
    and when it grows so big that it swallows you
    will you be safe in the belly of it



     


Monday, 01 June 2009

  • like jumping of a cliff

    wondering what lies ahead...
    so I have these moments where I get up out of bed
    something is driving me
    to do to think
    to work
    and I cant help myself really
    i am sleeping in 5 hr spurts
    I wonder how I will ever work a second job with this schedule! maybe I can add that to my cv. available all hours of night?

    I feel like I am searching
    like graduation finally !
    is not the end but some beginning or something...


Thursday, 30 April 2009

  • waking up

    I feel like I still haven't woken up
    and I am working
    I ran past my past the other day and didnt stop to mention probably all of things I should
    probably isnt that important
    to recount it
    tally it up
    would never quite settle the score and even if it did...it that really what I am looking for?
    not particularly

    I hate when it chews at me
    I have this way about me like
    like my grandmothers had written scribblings on card paper something arent that easy to throw away
    habit


    more later..maybe




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